Summer lovin

So summer's here and I have never in my life wanted to be back in school as much as I do now. I am completely bored out of my mind and my hopes of getting a job this summer and working to save some money were completely dashed by the fact that the jobs I want are at least 10 miles away from me and I am without transportation and without a hope of having transportation. It probably sounds a bit weird that I'm griping about not having a job and having a free summer to just be lazy and do nothing but I go crazy if my life isn't bedlam or close to it. Anyway I did however get to go on a trip around the midwest for 2 weeks and it was pretty fun except that I was with a lot of older people but other than that it was great. I would love to go back to Colorado though and live. I love the mountains and it is so beautiful there, albeit quite expensive. Besides Colorado we went to Nebraska, Oklahoma, Texas, Kansas, Arkansas, New Mexico, Missouri, Illinois and a few other states that I can think of right now. That reminds me of a funny anecdote. While I was in New Mexico we stopped in Albuqurque(sp?) which if you're a cartoon watcher, was always in old Bugs Bunny cartoons. Anyway when we stopped there I had expected it to be really cool because when I was little Bugs Bunny went there and he was cool right. But sadly it was just another hot New Mexico city. Nothing special at all.

On the road again

So I thought I'd do a nice long post since I hadn't done one in so long. School ended quite ok. Had a lot to do and I was pretty stressed for a while there, although I wouldn't have had as much if I hadn't prcrastinated. I pulled allnighters like 3 nights in a row, although the first night was because of Fiction ( by the way, great fun. can't wait to go again). Anyway everything's over and I got home Wednesday night. I really really really didn't want to come home. I knew I was gonna be stuck at home doing nothing and that's what I'm doing. I'm going on this trip so that'll be 2 weeks of doing something else before I have to come back and get a job and start acting like an actual adult, not that I wasn't before, but I actually have to start doing stuff. The other reason I didn't want to come home is because I feel different, changed, but it's a good change I think. Since I've been in Knoxville, I feel like everybody that I'm around is so encouraging and I just feel like I can grow in Knoxville, maybe even live there the rest of my life or around there(I do want a horse farm). I knew with being down here I'd be subjected to the same temptations that I was enduring before. I mean this time I think I can better deal with them than before, but I also don't want to put myself back into that if I don't absolutely have to.

On a sadder note, my parents have been really at ends lately. I think something happened while I was gone and of course I wasn't told about it because apparently I can't handle "real adult things." I'm just some child that can't be told anything sad at all or I'm gonna have a massive hissy and just collapse. I don't know exactly what happened but from what I gathered it's not good. I have my ways of finding out things and I will definitely find out. I can be quite perseverant when I want to be.

On a happier note, I had Subway tonight and I plan on having some Zaxby's very soon. The only bad thing about Knoxville is the fact that there are very few Zaxby's as opposed to down here where there's one on every corner.

Ok so I might do another blog very soon. I'm kinda tired now and I have to get up early and I also have to pack tomorrow. Later

Spring Break anyone?

Hey so I had a wonderful time on the CSC Spring Break trip. We had a lot of fun just driving around and helping people out. It started out slow but as the week progressed we started getting more involved and finding more stuff to do. But anyway it was great, lots of stories and inside jokes...that sort of thing.

Spring Break

So I should be packing right now for my Spring Break trip but instead I'm procrastinating, per usual. It shouldn't take long to pack and I wasn't planning on going to bed till late anyway so whatever. Hopefully the trip will go according to plan, or no plan? I think it should be fine though. Trips like these usually turn out awesome because you can do anything you want. But anyway just wanted to write a little something before we left. Must go finish doing laundry and pack.

There once was a dog

I'm just writing this because I'm procrastinating. That is all.

Sugary Substances

HAPPY FREE CHOCOLATE DAY SASHSA!!! Why, thank you Sashsa. I wanted to call it Happy Free Sugary Substances Day because you don't always get chocolate, but it didn't sound as good. Enjoy your Ferrero Rocher!

Hello again

I really don't know why I say hello, I'm just talking to myself but anyway, must keep with the niceties. So I was sitting here thinking and procrastinating sleep, and I started thinking about my life so I decided to write about it and get it out of my head for a while. I mean it seems to me that I've lived a long time, even though it's only been 18 years. And everybody I know has always said that I was older than I actually was. I feel old, like I've seen and done a lot for someone my age. I also think that sometimes I had to grow up too soon. *sigh* But you can't change the past so I'll try to not think about anymore.

Ok so it's Valentine's Day or as I like to call it Free Chocolate Day. So here's my opinion on this day. It's cool and all but it really is a money waster. Hallmark and Russell Stover got together and said, "Now how can we get unsuspecting people to buy millions of dollars worth of cards and candy and then make them feel like they're doing it for a special reason?" Ok so I realize the supposed "history" behind it, with St. Valentine and all that but that's just icing on the cake for the companies. Now don't get me wrong, I like getting chocolate just as much as the next girl so I hope that my opinion doesn't discourage anyone from giving me chocolate (in case there's a slight chance someone else is reading this) (also I am not bitter because I don't have a special someone to spend this "holiday" with. I feel this way regardless)

This is gonna be a long post because I just want to write some more. Anyway I've been thinking about the next 3 years of my life, or the rest of my college career. So I want to permanently move here very soon. It will definitely not be this summer and maybe not even next summer but hopefully by my junior or at least by my senior year I will have an apartment here. I will most surely miss the country and my hometown but I have to move on to bigger things and sometimes you just have to leave those you love behind so that you can live your own life and have your own adventures. Besides I absolutely love the mountains and I love being like 45 minutes away.

I think that's it for right now. I could probably write some more but I have go to work and I should get a least a little bit of sleep. So until tomorrow, fare thee well. (Again I really love ye olde English)

New

Hello! So I actually had to make this blog for my english class last semester and I haven't done anything to it except for class stuff. But, while sitting here thinking about stuff, I decided that I would start it up again for my own personal use. Also I wanted to use this because not many people know about it and I doubt that anyone would read this one anyway. I am a firm believer in journal usage. If you have a lot on your mind, writing it down can sometimes give you a different perspective and it just plain helps clear your mind. So until next time, which will probably be very soon, fare thee well. (I love ye olde English language)